who exactly is it?

i have been doing a ton of thinking about this.
trying hard to focus on my best self.
and then wondering who exactly is that?

what does she look like?
what does her life look like?

as with all of us,
covid has forced
and is forcing
so many changes.

i have been trying to quiet a bit over here
and figure out what that means.

all i have figured out so far is that
it’s not mine to figure out.
it’s mine to listen for.

so i’m focusing.
with a main part of that focusing
being on the listening end of things.

i feel nudged to be open to a lot of life that i know
falling away.

i have been in this spot before.
and i’m sure to be here again.

what a journey, ya know?
what a journey.

focusing.
listening.
and opening?
(trying!)