“I have decided to stick with love.
Hate is too great a burden to bear.”


as i sat and read the news this morning,
the tears ran down my face.
i go from absolute terror to such sorrow
as the stories go on and on.

and then i look out my window at the early morning
sun lighting up the trees way in the back. lit up
with such glory that it takes your breath away.
and i remember the vastness.

“We must accept finite disappointment,
but never lose infinite hope.” MLK

i read of yet another person who was associated
with trump being ousted from yet another college.
of a senator not being able to hold his fund raiser
as his venue pulled out and said no.

and the fear rose again in that now familiar wave that
keeps washing over me.

we are accepting these things.
and in that acceptance,
we are growing the ugliest of monsters.
it seems to pick up speed – with each act,
more pop up – yet it seems invisible to so many.
i fear at this rate, if we don’t see very soon, we won’t
be able to stop it.

“Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere.”

i think of MLK today, and long for a leader.
long for someone to put on the brakes, address the hate,
offer ideas for healing, and stop the lies. someone who
could address the divide and really understand what MLK said –
“We must learn to live together as brothers or perish together as fools.”

i see no one out there.
and the sorrow and fear rise again.

and then i think of jordan peterson and his words of
self responsibility. he would tell me that i need to be
my own leader. that i need to get my ‘own house’ in order.
and i think ol’ MLK might just agree –
“The time is always right to do what is right.”

i don’t know how to lead anyone, but i can lead myself.
and no, i’m not too sure it’s ‘enough.’
but it’s all i got.

“Faith is taking the first step even when you don’t
see the whole staircase.”

thinking of you today, martin, and wishing you were here.