it’s me

looking deeper
can be tiring.
i’m forever finding out it’s me.
not them.

rolling my eyes here.
i want it to be them.
soooo much easier that way.

lately a version of this thought has been on my mind.
this is how i tried to verbalize it recently –
‘something is either all about them, or all about you.
figure out which one it is. if it’s them, let it go,
if it’s you, deal with it.’

i am coming more and more into believing this in my bones.

now, the living it…
that’s gonna take a lot longer.

workin’ on it…