one thing i SHOULD have learned
thru all the traveling i have done
in the last 18 years is to TRUST.
trust the process.
trust my ability to live life.
sometimes i say i’ve learned it.
sometimes i know i’ve learned it.
sometimes i forget i’ve learned it.
sometimes it seems that i’ve never heard of the concept of trust.
the funk i landed in a few days ago led to a fair amount of stress.
i made sure i got a few fast walks in to work out some of that stress.
and this morning, after walking fast,
and doin’ a few exercises that make me feel good,
i felt the best i have in a few days.
i actually feel good right now.
like i’ve come out of the funk.
maybe sorta like i’m teetering on the edge of it.
and something i see is the stress i’ve been feeling
is from fighting life so hard.
i can wrestle with the universe with the best of ’em!
i just don’t feel like wrestling today.
i feel like trusting.
i didn’t actively push myself into trusting.
i toyed with the memory of trust.
knew it was out there if i wanted it.
and that was it.
this morning i’m just ready to hold it again.
for no other reason that i can come up with
other than it actually seems easier than stress.
that’s kinda cool.
usually stress seems easier.
today tho, i’m goin’ with it.
and likin’ it.